Since you've gone I been lost without a trace I dream at night I can only see your face I look around but it's you I can't replace I feel so cold and I long for your embrace I keep crying baby, baby, please Excerpt, “Every Breath You Take,” The Police September 6th, 2005 Although I often visit Chris' site, I have never been quite able to gather my thoughts in an effort to include them on the site. However, I felt compelled today and cannot ignore my emotions. I awoke this morning to the radio and the first song played was "Every Breath You Take" by The Police. I always think of Chris when I hear this song and felt overwhelmed this morning when it began to play. It immediately brought me to tears and I felt as if Chris were with me at that moment. I am fortunate to see Chris' beautiful spirit carried on everyday through the lives of his brothers and sisters and pray for small miracles to comfort our family as we continue to honor Chris' life in all that we do. Your brother and I love you immensely, Chris. Love, Alicia and Joe Wren

Every year at this time I want to bury my head until the day passes, as if I could will it not to be so. Every year I am unable to deny that another year has passed without you here. The words written here, the flowers they leave at your resting place, the countless tears that are shed for you; all are a tribute to the amazing person that touched our lives so deeply.

The other day I broke down. Its been real hard for me to be around and talk to anyone or thing that reminds me of you. Its been cold and dark for me lately and without you to run to I'm more lost. Four years its been MY GOD it seems like forever. I miss you and Love you very much and your spirit will live on as long as I'm here and the people who love you... I love you ..... Allisen

Its almost another year gone by without you. There is not one day that goes by that I don't think about you. I miss you ..... -Allisen

I don't know how Chris died, I can only think of my own son Jake, He's nine years old and I love him more than life itself, the same goes for my daughter Kassie, she's seventeen, I can't even entertain the thought of loosing either one of them. Our hearts and prayers go out to you and your family. God bless. Jeff Wren /Chino, Ca.

It doesn't seem to matter how long it has been, you are missed every bit as much. Broken hearts to never mend, tears that never end. We carry your memories like private treasures...

CHRIS THERE ISN'T A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DON'T THINK OF YOU, I DON'T THINK THERE WILL EVER BE A DAY THAT I DON'T. I MISS YOU MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO SO SO VERY MUCH!!! LOVE YOUR JESS

Hi- my name is Eleana Harrison, I just happened to stumble across this site while I was online and it really touched me. I just had a friend last summer pass away due to a car accident and it really hurt the community. He was an amazing guy. I just wanted to say that this website is absolutely amazing and truly touching. I can tell that Chris had a wonderful life full of people that loved him. I also want to say thank you, I believe I stumbled across this site to remind my self that even though some one has been lost the love for that person and that person's love will never die. Thank you for the experience and reminder. Love- Eleana

I come to this site thinking somehow I can "spend time with you". I like to see your face, your smile... I miss you so.

wow... so much time has gone by and I still can't believe that I visit this site.. I love you and I will never stop .. you are my strength.

Chris, I Love You so much, I wish you were here for one more laugh, smile and hug. I love you. Your Jess

Finding the days a little easier knowing I will see you soon. Love and miss you always Love Allisen

Haven't been here for a long time so I just wanted to say I love you and think about you every day. I just had another dream about you a week ago, and as long as I can hug you in my dream that's good for me. I want to let you know how much of an inspiration you were to me and I thank God I had the chance to meet you even though it was 5 short years. Missing you always, Till we meet again, Allisen

Its the day before Thanksgiving and I would like to wish the Sare family a happy holiday. Allisen

Missing Chris is my life now... everything is shadowed by my grief. My heart will forever ache for him.

Chris, you will for ever be in my heart, and I'll always hold our friendship in the highest honor. Always and forever your friend Tana

Well Its almost the beginning of a new year! My birthday and your birthday are right around the corner. It feels like the memory of your laugh and the bright cheer you bring to people are fading. I still don't want to let go. But I m glad you are still in my heart love you- alli

Hello Darcy and the family. I have visited this site a few times, but finally I am compelled to write something. I really appreciate all the nice things people have to say about Chris as well as the pictures. It reminds me of all the good times growing up and how much we have to live for. I remember hanging out at the house almost every day after school lifting weights, swimming, and just messing around. Thank you guys for all the good memories and your hospitality.. Paul Diaz

Today you would have been 25. How I wish we could know what your life would be like. Would you be married? Would you have a child of your own? One thing is certain, your life would have been full of love, laughter and joy, just as it always was. Missing your laugh, your smile, your presence. Mom

I was just remembering the time me, you and my family went to the movies. You were throwing popcorn at my brother calling him a "fag". My Mom reminded me of that last night. You always made me laugh:} Oh and the time me you and Ian went and you spilled a LARGE soda all over me{ on accident} you laughed for a long time and now I can laugh too! Your birthday just passed, yours and mine are three days apart, I wish I could have spent it with you. You are very lucky Chris, your family is great. Remember when I would go pick up your Brother and Sister from school with you and now I try to as often as I can because you did so much for me....I want to return the favor by helping your family. I love you Chris and Miss you - Allisen Garrett

I went to High School with Chris at Centennial, and I just found out of his passing. I had no idea! I am very saddened at the loss of such a wonderful person. He was a good friend, he will be missed. Melissa Tritz

CHRIS, I LOVE YOU, YOUR JESS. JEREMY LOVES YOU TOO... ALSO I JUST WANTED YOU AND YOUR FAMILY TO KNOW THAT TWO OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS NAMED THEIR CHILDREN AFTER YOU. LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH. JESS

Today I was sitting at my computer at work, I was looking something up (though it has escaped me now what it was) and I found myself here. I have come here to visit and to read what others have written about my cousin Chris, but have never been able to write something of my own. I'm not sure why. I have Chris' picture up in my living room and I look at it every day. I remember when we were little we were, for a while, the only kids that trampled through Grandma and Grandpa's house. I have one memory in particular that defines the wonderful, caring heart that Chris possessed... We were probably 3&4 and were playing in the back yard at Darcy's house. Chris was showing me how to climb up onto a fence or something and I fell. I remember crying because it hurt. Chris' first instinctual reaction was to try and pick me up. Though he had huge muscles, even then, he was still only a little guy and couldn't pick me up. Chris didn't give up...he helped me up and brushed the dirt off of my knees and asked if I was okay. For some reason it didn't hurt anymore. He walked me over to my Mom and Aunt Darcy and began to tell them what happened, at the risk of getting himself into trouble because we weren't supposed to be climbing on that fence. Even as young as he was then, Chris had a way of picking you up, dusting you off and making the hurt go away...all the while, setting himself and his feelings, so unselfishly aside. I was five when we moved to Las Vegas, though I would often visit Corona during summer breaks. Every time I came to visit, it was as if Chris and I had never been apart. I miss you Chris and I will love you always. ~Wendy Dawn

I would like to thank Wendy Dawn{ Chris's cousin} for sharing her memories of Chris. What you wrote could not be anymore true. Chris was indeed a pick up and brusher off type of guy. I love you Chris and miss you everyday.. Your loyal friend, Allisen

I love and miss you so much I cant breath sometimes. Always and forever .... your loyal friend...Allisen Garrett

Chris, I think about you everyday. I miss you so much. I cant wait to see you. Thank you for being my guardian angel. I love you...Jeni

There is not one day that you don't cross my mind. I miss you and love you very much Your loyal friend Allisen

I try to keep so busy that my grief cannot find me, an impossible task.  He was such a huge presence; the loss of him left an even larger void.  When will my heart stop aching?  I fear never.

 I just keep moving, piling on more and more so that I have no time to let my thoughts wander.  Any down time will knock me for a loop.  And just when I am breezing along, my head filled with trivial dilemmas; a memory is triggered, a physical pain thrust through my soul. 

 I am getting better at this; grief is no longer my master.  No longer do the sobs come heaving, I can almost hold back tears, though they may well up in my eyes, most often I’m able to keep them from flowing over.  Still there are times when I must allow the tears to flow or I shall burst.

Though I shed many tears in sorrow, my memories of Chris are cherished treasures.  His big pure heart, his compassion and humor, I'll hold his memories forever in my heart.

A Broken Heart: Pain, persistent, an ache really, heartache Sorrow pouring from the break Tears falling like a river Is it bearable you ask? My heart still beats within Love still holds it together But the wound is deep And I fear the healing is leaving a scar “Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I." Ps 61:1-2

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Since you've gone I been lost without a trace I dream at night I can only see your face I look around but it's you I can't replace I feel so cold and I long for your embrace I keep crying baby, baby, please Excerpt, “Every Breath You Take,” The Police September 6th, 2005 Although I often visit Chris' site, I have never been quite able to gather my thoughts in an effort to include them on the site. However, I felt compelled today and cannot ignore my emotions. I awoke this morning to the radio and the first song played was "Every Breath You Take" by The Police. I always think of Chris when I hear this song and felt overwhelmed this morning when it began to play. It immediately brought me to tears and I felt as if Chris were with me at that moment. I am fortunate to see Chris' beautiful spirit carried on everyday through the lives of his brothers and sisters and pray for small miracles to comfort our family as we continue to honor Chris' life in all that we do. Your brother and I love you immensely, Chris. Love, Alicia and Joe Wren